Days Gone By

Celestial Bearings

Visited Places

Soundscapes

31. O talismã no mastro

Passámos o dia de ontem num molengo descanso. A noite anterior tinha sido longa – ficámos a ver o concerto de música ao vivo até ao fim – e como a seguir era domingo ninguém estava disponível para ajudar o capitão a fazer a manutenção do Nómada; por isso folgámos o dia. Vimos outros barcos saírem de manhã para um passeio domingueiro e, já depois do almoço, as tripulações a regressarem, ao longo da tarde, revigorados. O capitão andou pelo pontão, em conversa com os navegantes locais, e quando regressou, sentou-se na consola de navegação a tomar notas num dos seus livros de capa preta. Jantámos recolhidos cada um em si mesmo, o capitão a rabiscar nos seus cadernos, eu a tentar ler enquanto comia. Hoje de manhã cedo, saí com uma lista de mantimentos na mão e um casaco que percebi ser demasiado fino para o clima húmido matinal da Nova Escócia, apesar de o vento soprar com uma estranha parcimónia. O céu mantinha-se suspenso num cinzento mineral, sem rasgos nem promessas de sol. «Ao menos,...

30. A deriva da (in) permanência

Deixámos a enseada ao amanhecer, logo depois de a névoa matinal se dissipar com a leveza sentida numa casa a arejar de janelas abertas. O sol espreitava por entre os ramos de coníferas que não reconheci, talvez abetos e pinheiros, lançando sombras na suave ondulação. Ani vinha connosco, depois de ter pedido ao capitão uma boleia até Sydney.  Ele aceitou-a de imediato, em contraste com a resignação com que tinha recebido nas mãos o chá de cevada por ela preparado para nós antes da largada. Uns minutos depois, a expressão de suspeita de um miúdo forçado a tomar um remédio amargo tinha mudado para a de quem sente o reconforto de uma bebida saborosa. Assumiu o leme com o seu habitual silêncio de início de jornada e eu recolhi as amarras. Navegámos lentamente pelas águas interiores, entre enseadas e curvas suaves do lago Bras d’Or. O barco deslizava suavemente nas ondas sob os nossos pés e os cabos murmuravam pianinho nas escotas, como se quisessem manter a tranquilidade daquela manhã. Ao...

29. Neblina dos Silêncios

Ficámos ancorados em Whycocomagh mais tempo do que esperávamos. Permanecemos em casa da Rita Joe dois dias e ela levou-nos a passear pela região. Regressámos ontem ao Nómada demasiado tarde para fazer sentido zarpar. Por isso, decidimos dormir a bordo sem adivinharmos o que nos esperava no dia seguinte. Quando hoje acordámos, havia uma neblina matinal que parecia uma leve cortina pendurada sobre o lago. Porém, ainda antes de terminarmos o café matinar,  transformou-se numa manta espessa, branca como leite e tão densa que o mundo parecia ter-se esquecido da sua forma. O capitão Jackdaw foi buscar um casaco impermeável azul e passou a manhã a verificar previsões meteorológicas no rádio e a observar a água, como se a superfície plácida pudesse contar-lhe um segredo que os mapas não revelavam. Eu tomava notas num caderno, tentando capturar o silêncio espesso que envolvia o Nómada como uma respiração suspensa. A Rita passou de manhã cedo e deixou-nos um embrulho de Lusknikn enrolado num...

28. Vozes Enterradas

 Afinal, não demorou muito a prosseguirmos a viagem, livres dos polícias. O homem de cabelos brancos parece ter uma certa influência sobre as autoridades locais.   O capitão regressou com ele ao barco, sorridente. «Temos connosco um novo tripulante. É um prazer receber a bordo o reconhecido inventor Alexander Bell», disse, piscando-me o olho, ao que o homem correspondeu com um aceno e uma saudação com uma voz suave e segura. A expressão da Rita não revelou qualquer surpresa. O Capitão Jackdaw deu-lhe as boas-vindas, com a sua habitual cortesia, sem conseguir evitar olhar para mim com uma expressão que dizia “Sabias que este era o Alexander Graham Bell?”. Dei-lhe um ligeiro encolher de ombros; era novidade para mim também. Bell acomodou-se num dos assentos à popa, enquanto eu e o capitão fazíamos a largada do Nómada. «Esta é a professora Rita Joe.», apontei. «A poeta? Muito prazer em conhecê-la pessoalmente. Somos vizinhos e nunca nos tínhamos cruzado até agora», observou Bell. A...

27. Visitantes caídos do céu

Acordei cedo hoje. O mar ainda estava escuro, o céu com leves traços de lavanda da madrugada espelhados num mar calmo como não tínhamos ainda encontrado nesta viagem. Ficámos em Kellys Cove, uma pequena enseada junto a New Campbellton, um lugarejo com uma dúzia de casas no lado norte da Nova Escócia, na entrada para os seus lagos interiores. Parámos aqui porque tem um pontão onde pudemos deixar o Handy LoL em segurança, sem sinal das suas perseguidoras, pronto para seguir em direção a New Glasgow e daí de regresso ao seu estúdio em Nova Iorque. Com ele foi o inseparável smartphone cheio de novas selfies tiradas a bordo de um veleiro ao largo da costa oceânica que ele irá transformar em arte e de arte em dinheiro. O pontão era também o ponto de encontro com o próximo membro da tripulação. «Chega amanhã de manhã, é uma professora primária que veio fazer uma caminhada em Cape Dauphin e que aproveitou a nossa passagem para regressar a casa a velejar.» Estava ainda a dissipar-se o vapor...

26. Sell fee? Selfie?

O capitão não descansou nas primeiras horas após a nossa largada, sempre a tentar manter a máxima velocidade junto à costa, com a intenção de encontrar um refúgio para as despistarmos. O vento soprava húmido e frio vindo do mar e uma névoa envolvia o convés como uma constante ameaça de cair sobre nós um véu espesso a qualquer momento. O capitão, de olhos semicerrados e mãos firmes no leme, lançava olhares rápidos ao horizonte, como se esperasse ver silhuetas a emergirem da bruma. «Aquilo é que são verdadeiras fãs.», ironizou o capitão. Handy Lol, encolhido num dos bancos da popa, puxava nervosamente a gola do casaco, como se quisesse esconder-se dentro dele. «Ela odeia-me.», repetiu várias vezes o novo tripulante, dividindo o olhar entre nós e o horizonte à popa do veleiro. O seu rosto, pálido e tenso, parecia lutar contra algo mais do que o enjoo. Os olhos, inquietos, procuravam na névoa uma ameaça invisível. «E ela tem razão para isso?» «Ela diz que só sente desprezo por mim, por...

25. A abordagem das feministas

Os últimos dias passados em Peggy Cove foram perfeitos para recarregar as baterias depois de uma travessia do Atlântico Norte. O capitão Slocum levou-nos a conhecer Mount Hanley, a sua terra natal, e fizemos o percurso ao longo de quase toda a costa marítima da Nova Escócia. Não queria sair daqui sem explorar ao máximo a beleza natural deste território, mas cá estou de trouxa ensacada e pronta para zarpar. Não é tanto por ter um certo sentimento de obrigação em acompanhar o capitão – até onde e durante quanto tempo, ainda não sei – mas sobretudo por sentir a morder o bichinho da curiosidade sobre o que é que ele anda a fazer nesta volta ao mundo. E se terei algum papel nisso tudo. Estava a matutar nisto a caminho do cais quando vi uma multidão no pontão em torno do nosso barco. Já estava na expetativa de encontrar mais um conselheiro político na tripulação, ou até mesmo um político popularucho, a julgar pela amalgama de gente, mas afinal era um “influencer”. Nunca tinha visto tanta...

24 – Rituais de Navegantes

Suponho que estejas familiarizado com certas práticas cerimoniais que ocorrem durante os solstícios de verão e de inverno. O mais badalado é Stonehenge, mas em vários países nórdicos os festivais de verão são o principal evento cultural do calendário e entre as nações indígenas do continente americano há celebrações nestes dias que evocam a sua ligação com a natureza. Pois, a noite passada testemunhei algo semelhante que trouxe algum sentido aos eventos das últimas semanas, embora tenha levantado novas questões que dificilmente serão respondidas, pelo menos por agora. Depois do pequeno-almoço com o capitão Slocum e o DeGarthe no dia da nossa chegada, ficámos a descansar o dia todo e ontem dormirmos até tarde. Precisávamos de recuperar energias depois de uma travessia do Atlântico Norte. Hoje de manhã, visitámos Peggy’s Cove, demorando-nos a admirar a arquitetura local e o efeito da maré na configuração deste pequeno lugarejo de cerca de 30 moradias. Depois do almoço, tivemos uma...

23. Chegada a Peggy Cove

Chegámos a Peggy’s Cove, na costa da Nova Escócia, no Canadá. O céu estava limpo, mas o ar trazia aquele frio cortante que só o Atlântico Norte sabe soprar. Sinto uma ligeira vertigem ao pensar nas milhas de oceano que nos separam, cada um de nós de um lado diferente do Atlântico. O mundo cresce à medida da nossa consciência, no reconhecimento de rotinas desfasadas em locais diferentes: uma enfermeira na Califórnia que sai de casa para o trabalho com os filhos que deixará na escola, um taxista na Nigéria que exaspera com as filas de trânsito do final da tarde em Lagos, um funcionário de uma bomba de gasolina em Alice Springs que termina o turno com o nascer do sol na Austrália… Recordo-me daquele filme de Jim Jarmush que vimos no Luísa Todi com o título “Uma noite na Terra” ou algo parecido. Diferentes culturas certamente, mas as dimensões básicas de espaço e tempo separam-nos: horas de acordar para ti quando ainda estou a meio do sono; pequeno-almoço aqui quando almoças aí. Falando...

22. Sextants and Singularities

As night fell, Vacchia Meli retired to his cabin, probably still a little dazed by the lesson I had administered right across his... supraorbital arches. The Captain and I remained on deck, practising how to determine our position with the sextant. I knew he knew I was dying to throw myself at the subject that had been left hanging, as I told you, but I didn't want to force the conversation. Then, as casually as if he were commenting on the position of a star in the sky we were observing, the Captain said: "The reason Vacchia Meli is on board is that this is no longer about people. It's about narratives in transit." The look on my face must have made it clear that I hadn't caught the silent part of his thinking. "You're beginning to feel it, aren't you?", he asked. I was more surprised by the sudden familiarity of his switching to an informal tone than by the question itself. "The world began to warp a few decades ago. Or, if you prefer, to become subtly twisted, like a magnetic tape...

21 – O ringue da virtude

What a nightmare it is to be out on the open sea without internet, unable to talk to you, or even to check a few facts! Not only I had some sort of hallucination, I think I’ve had yet another episode of crossing paths with the past. Or at least with people who seem to have come from another century. After the psychedelic experience aboard the yellow submarine, I was still feeling a little dizzy and, to avoid feeling even worse, I decided to turn in early, skip dinner and get some rest. I woke with that strange clarity of those mornings when the world seems to have been going on for a long time without you, surprised that the Captain hadn’t woken me for a night watch. I started getting ready for the day and, while I was in the saloon drinking a glass of water, I heard someone moving behind me and felt a hand on my hip, firm, casual, as though it belonged there. “Hey, bela!” Every alarm in my body went off and, confirming with a quick glance that it wasn’t the Captain approaching me, I...

20. Hallucinatory Submersion

I had another episode like the one with the tattoo in Setúbal, unable to tell dream from reality. Only this time it was not a matter of memory lapses or sudden leaps through time and space. Reality itself had been altered, as though it had suffered an attack of total synaesthesia. I had retired to my cabin, unable to follow the conversation among the three crackpots, convinced I had drunk too much grog. In truth, I had only had two small glasses, but I must have been more susceptible than usual, my body worn out after so many days at sea. I woke in the middle of the night to a strange motion, as though we had altered course and the boom had swung over to the opposite tack. I remember getting up to see what was happening. As I stepped onto the deck, I found myself flooded by the wine-red colour of the sea from the Greek classics, while waves of pop-rock music drifted across its calm surface like yellow sheets hanging in a gentle breeze. I am not speaking metaphorically. I could smell...

19. Pedagogies

The encounter with the trimaran broke our isolation and dispelled the feeling that we were alone in the world. Yet it also had the curious effect of awakening a longing to be back on land, to see people around us again, to witness things happening instead of the endless rhythm of the waves. "It'll still be a little while before we reach land, but you'll get to see some new faces tomorrow.", the captain revealed. More encounters in the middle of the ocean? Apparently, the captain had received a radio message informing him that Captain Nemo, one of those captains I'd met in the Azores, was waiting for us aboard his submarine. Our three crewmates were delighted at the prospect of meeting a submarine in the open sea. I, on the other hand, panicked immediately. “Captain Nemo has a submarine? Like the real Captain Nemo?”, I thought. That couldn't possibly be true. It had to be a joke. When I looked at the captain, I saw him studying my expression before giving me a wink. “Of course. A...

18. Tradition is not what it used to be

Since that strange dead calm moment some days ago, we’ve been sailing at a good speed. When the wind returned, it returned with force. “We went looking for where it had gone,” said the captain. Then he explained everything to me with the sarcastic patience of someone who knows he is speaking to a person who probably understands only half of what is being said. We had headed a little farther south to escape a high-pressure system and avoid any stubborn iceberg that might have decided to venture farther south than it ought to; now we were making our way west, and later we would turn northwest towards Nova Scotia. “The shortest route is rarely the fastest,” he said. “Especially when the wind seems to have a mind of its own.” We were making good speed, sailing with the wind on the quarter. Another opportunity for a sailing TED Talk: a quartering wind is the fastest point of sail and, at some stage, someone in Portugal probably began using the expression “to put oneself on the quarter...

16. Cosmic Sailor

We were a long way from the Bermuda Triangle, yet we had a strange encounter at sea. Perhaps this corner of the North Atlantic is the Triangle’s back door. I tried to memorize the coordinates – 41.70-something north and 41.40-something west – as the captain wrote them in the logbook. You’d be surprised by the things that lurk out here. I cannot say exactly when and how it happened. In truth, nobody noticed it at first. We were each lost in our own thoughts, perhaps bored by the monotony of the open ocean, when suddenly we realized that the wind, which had accompanied us steadily until then, had vanished without warning. More than that, the waves lost their rhythm and flattened into a strangely motionless surface. Even the sounds seemed different. The creaking of the boat’s various fittings and the slap of water against the hull stood out in an unnatural silence, unnaturally sharp, accompanied by an aggressive echo, as though the horizon surrounding us were in fact an invisible wall...

16. Possessive nouns

The unfortunate interaction between excessive quantities of grogue and the motion of a sailing boat has, I am pleased to report, produced a measurable improvement in our collective judgement. Our three philosophers now approach the bottle with considerably greater caution than during the first days of the voyage. This newfound moderation, however, has done nothing to diminish their enthusiasm for argument. On the contrary, the debates have become longer, more coherent and, in some cases, even louder. Captain Jackdaw encourages this tendency whenever the sea is calm enough to permit conversation. Whenever a silence threatens to settle over the cockpit, he has the unnerving habit of introducing a question, an anecdote or an observation calculated to provoke disagreement. Having lit the fuse, he then leans back and watches the explosion unfold with the satisfaction of a man who has found an economical form of entertainment in the middle of the Atlantic. “Last year, while passing through...

15. The natural State

This time, preparations for departure proceeded at a leisurely pace, free from the pressure of tides or arrival deadlines. That did not mean, however, that the Captain spent the morning snoring in his bunk. He was up with the sunrise, putting the final touches on arrangements that had already begun several days earlier. And rightly so, a North Atlantic crossing, possibly lasting fifteen days or more, with five people aboard, required planning down to the smallest detail. By the time I reached the harbour, most of the work had already been done, and I only helped complete the final tasks. Afterwards, we went to the Metralhas for what would be our last lunch ashore for several weeks and reviewed the inventory one final time: equipment, stores, provisions and supplies. We returned briefly to our lodgings for one last shower free of rolling decks, a change of clothes and the collection of the remaining personal belongings. On our walk back to the harbour, I could not resist asking about...

14. Early Bird Corvo

Spend a night wandering around this island and you feel its isolation. There is no sound of anyone returning from somewhere or slipping away to somewhere else, no nocturnal mechanical rumble spreading low across the ground, no distant echo of vehicles in motion. Only the unchanging, relentless and merciless pounding of the waves in a tightening siege around the island. I am still in the process of adapting to this maritime soundtrack and, perhaps for that reason, I could not sleep. The sound of the sea I knew was the gentle murmur of surf recreated by smartphone relaxation apps, but last night my room was flooded by the resonant snoring of a fat old ocean. I went out to ease the tension, clear my head and take in the night landscape, thinking that perhaps I might run into someone or find an open bar. Everything was closed. Yet near the airstrip, beside the cemetery wall, I was startled by the sound of voices engaged in a muffled conversation. Eager to discover who was whispering and...

13. Sic.. et Non

“Men's and women's hearts are moved more by examples than by mere words, and they find comfort in witnessing the suffering of those who, when one compares miseries, deserve even greater compassion than themselves. That is why I always recount the path that brought me here, so that those who seek me out may discover how light their burdens truly are when set against my tribulations, and thus face their own obstacles with greater ease.” Sounds like something lifted straight from a Technicolor biblical epic, doesn't it? That was how Abelardo, the hermit of Corvo, welcomed us, after a brief exchange of formal greetings, hands shaken with the solemnity of those who have nowhere to be and names exchanged with the air of people who know they will remember none of them. And, just as promised, he immediately began, without anyone asking, to tell the story of his downfall, a tale he had probably repeated so many times that it had become the standard prologue for anyone joining the retreat. “I...

12. A Game Without Trumps

I do not know what sort of spell was cast upon me, nor whether someone slipped something into my food, but the fact remains that I fell fast asleep immediately after the last mouthful of dinner. By the time I woke, we were already approaching the island, little more than three miles from shore. It was a rather dispiriting awakening. I was still rubbing the sleep from my eyes when I caught sight of the place where we were about to land. The last remnants of sleep liquefied and drained legs down as we approached Porto da Casa, the harbour of Corvo Island. Nestled in the most domestic corner of the island, at the foot of the village, it seemed far too exposed to offer much protection to a vessel attempting to dock. As we approached, the waves appeared to pay no heed whatsoever to the harbour's modest breakwater. They swept across the coastline as if it belonged entirely to them. I imagine that on a day of stronger winds, with the Atlantic driving a vessel before it, one might sail...

11. The Far Side of Things

It has been a nerve-racking week for Captain Jackdaw. I could see the unease in his gait and in his eyes, eager to cast off the lines, yet forced to watch the wind make a mockery of his plans. A stubborn calm kept us ashore when all he wanted was to set a course for Corvo. From what I have managed to gather, there has been a change of plans. I am beginning to suspect that another map, invisible to me, is charting the Nomad’s route. We were supposed to head for the Caribbean after the Azores, and now we are bound for Nova Scotia. I know... out of the frying pan and into the refrigerator. The strangest thing is that the change came after the meeting at Capelinhos Lighthouse. Throughout the week, I overheard the Captain engaged in several discreet telephone conversations. I could not make out much, but the day before yesterday two of the other captains, Nemo and Corto Maltese, stopped by the house and remained outside talking in low voices, little more than whispers. What I caught was...

10.The Captains’ Meeting

Do you remember the Famous Five adventures? Five Go to Mystery Moor and Five Go Off to Camp were my favourite stories because they were the most nocturnal. Well, you won’t believe it, but tonight I lived through exactly that sort of adventure, the kind where somebody says, “If anyone shows up, signal with the lights.” As I told you, we went to the gathering of captains at Peter Café Sport. It is a legendary place within the global sailing community. It started out as a shop, but later moved closer to the harbour, and one of the owner’s sons decided to expand the premises and create a bar aimed at men of the sea. Peter was a sort of nickname given to the owner’s son who ran the bar; an English naval officer thought he looked like his son Peter, and the name stuck. “I’m taking the opportunity to pick up the mail that’s waiting for me here,” said the Captain. “The bar is a post office too?” “Before emails and instant messages, sailors used to send their mail to Peter’s, which kept it...

9. Viagens do horror

I do not believe that anyone in my position could avoid wondering about Captain Jackdaw’s mysterious companions. First there was the misanthropic lighthouse keeper and the extravagant Captain Ed, then our travelling companion on the voyage to Horta, the adventurous journalist from Voyages Extraordinaires, and now a future passenger, the eccentric Mr Peux, Verlin’s partner in the travel agency Grotesque and Arabesque. “We shall probably meet him in Boston. I should have confirmation before we cross the Atlantic,” the Captain remarked as we rounded the tip of the island towards the harbour. “The company of Monsieur Peux you shall adore,” Verlin assured us, wearing one of those oblique smiles that never reveal whether they herald a revelation or an aesthetic falsehood. The agency run by the two partners specialises in providing services to those who, being obscenely wealthy and trapped within an existence of boredom, seek new and heart-stopping sensations to invigorate body and spirit....

8. Speaking Seasick

A week of rest in Santa Maria was enough to restore our energy after the transatlantic adventure between Sagres and Vila do Porto. So much so that the voyage to Faial feels like a genuine weekend outing, with a gentle five-knot breeze offshore. The conditions are ideal for everyone on board to relax and chat. When I say everyone on board, I mean myself, the captain, and one additional crew member; but he is a character worth several people at once, and his peculiar way of organising speech requires as much effort to follow as trying to understand two or three people speaking simultaneously. His name is Jules Verlin, “intrepid explorer and journalist for Voyages Extraordinaires magazine.” As an explorer, however, he suffers terribly from seasickness, and as for his journalistic talents, I can only hope that his articles possess a more coherent structure and a clearer logical cohesion. He has not managed to produce a single sentence in the normal order of words. “San Michelle, of my...

7. At the Bearded Keeper’s Lighthouse

We spent the weekend recovering from our seasickness. The day after arriving I was still aching all over, but we went out to stretch our legs and explore the village. It is a settlement nestled lengthwise along a narrow valley, with three or four streets running from the houses on the ridge down to the small harbour sheltered in a tight cove beneath the watch of an old fort. If you dropped a marble at the door of the first house on the hill, it would roll straight down to the sea without straying more than a dozen metres from its course. On the western side of the harbour, a road leads to the airport, aligned with the western coast of Santa Maria Island. To the east lie half a dozen hamlets, twenty or thirty houses in each, and the Gonçalo Velho Lighthouse, where we had been invited to dinner at the lighthouse keeper’s home. He was an old friend of Captain Jackdaw’s. The lighthouse stands isolated at the tip of the island’s southeastern headland, accessible only by a narrow road with...

6. Abductions and Conspiracies

Prepare yourself for another ride on the fantasy carousel... Our arrival in Santa Maria was anything but conventional. And it wasn't just because we'd spent a week trapped in the monotony of the sea, with nothing to look at but waves and the same faces day after day. If you're reading these messages in the correct order, you'll know that the Captain decided I would take the helm during our approach to the harbour. It was still dawn, the clear sky rapidly shedding its deep blue darkness as the first light of day tried to climb over the cliffs on the eastern side of the island. After the long crossing, the sea seemed resigned to its fate, abandoned without so much as a breeze for company. We turned into the wind, took our time lowering the sails, and continued under motor power. I stood at the helm, guided by the Captain's instructions, concentrating with all the earnestness of a diligent student sitting her first night-navigation exam. "A little more to port... that's it... hold your...

5. Heroes and Heroines

"Seamanship is as much fortune-telling as it is science." That was my outburst when we finally caught sight of the lights of Vila do Porto, and I was immediately rebuked. "Everything that happened during our voyage could have been predicted if we had all the necessary data for the calculations," Carlos Sage argued. I can hardly bear any more scientific objectivity! I know, it's unfair because he's actually a thoroughly decent fellow. I suspect this sour mood is simply because I'm tired. And if I'm writing at this hour, still at sea, it's because I know I'll sleep for many hours once we arrive and won't feel like sitting in front of a computer any time soon. I'll merely connect to the internet and send you the messages I've written on board during the past week. Ifor the record, it's four in the morning and we're finally approaching Santa Maria. We've spent the last two days, more than 120 miles, beating and beating to windward, with the wind shifting constantly and making life...

A baloney detection kit

Surrounded by water on every side, it seems odd to say that the last two days of the voyage have been painfully dry. The culprit, however, is the lack of wind... In an attempt to escape the depression – the very same one that apparently caused small tornadoes back on land – the captain set a course for the Gorringe Banks, 120 miles off Sagres. Up to that point, we had been flying along. Then we turned towards Madeira and even began to think we might stop there for a day, but we were caught by the calm that was sweeping up the remnants of the disturbance left behind by the depression. That’s what the captain explained. For two days, we’ve been experiencing a perfectly smooth sea with no wind, imagining Madeira just over there on the horizon. "We're not exactly next to Madeira! We're more than 200 miles away. That's farther than the distance between Lisbon and Porto," the captain clarified, as though that were supposed to make us feel any better. Fortunately, the wind returned. The...

3. The Heroine’s Journey

I feel that now the adventure truly begins. Like turning the first pages of a novel, when the analytical mind weighs every sentence while quietly measuring the promise of the chapters still to come, I have spent these first days trying to understand the meaning of this peculiar undertaking. It is an emotional calculation, if such a thing exists, an attempt to build empathy with something made entirely of expectations, sensations, and carefully assembled justifications. And little wonder, considering the risks inherent in a voyage of this magnitude. My reluctance to throw myself fully into this challenge came from the fear of eventual disenchantment: the possibility that the novelty of places and of those who inhabit them might fade into a routine of gestures and conversations, into days so alike they blur into one another. As I told you, I feel that now I have finally shed the burdens that kept me at a distance from emotion. Now, the adventure truly begins. “It’s more than an...

2. At Ricky’s bar

The first week after departure, and the travel plan is already at risk of being changed. Everything went smoothly until we reached the port of Baleeira, by Cape Sagres, around lunch hour. It had been 93 peaceful miles, calm enough to allow for deep sleep. As Nómada approached the harbour, we brought her head to wind and lowered the sails. We started the engine and slowly made our way toward the pontoons, the captain at the helm and I preparing the fenders and mooring lines. Then the engine sputtered and died. We tried to restart it – once, twice, three times – nothing. The wind, which blows there with stubborn persistence, began pushing us toward the Martinhal islets. The captain cursed under his breath and, with a resolute movement, whether born of anger or calculation, he ran to the bow to drop anchor in the hope of keeping us away from the rocks. Suddenly, a jet ski appeared at high speed, coming from behind the islets, as if someone were filming a commercial. The rider, dressed...

1. A twisting around the world

There’s a kind of hesitant calm when night falls over the sea. To me, it feels like a remnant of childhood, when my parents would switch off the bedroom light and I’d lie there in the dark, watching the faint shadows made by the light slipping through the crack in the door. My heart would start racing, my senses on edge, straining to catch the slightest sound or movement in the half-light. But after some moments, it would settle again as soon as I felt convinced that the height of the bed and the weight of the blankets were enough to keep anything at bay. The sea at night is like a dark room, its vastness making you feel just how alone you really are. I don’t mean to scare you with this. I just want to convey how intense it is to be alone at the helm, surrounded by the absence of any real visual reference points. The constant motion of the waves makes it impossible to get a sense of where I am in space and, although I can hear water around me, I’ve never felt so aware of the...

Prologue 5. A Peripatetic Conversation

I’ve just got home after meeting Silva. It was as if I had returned to the crime scene. He was waiting for me at Adega dos Frades, on the ground floor of the same building of the boarding house. Doesn’t it ever feel when you go somewhere familiar as you’re returning to a dream, filled with memories gathered like dust that escapes the cleaning cloth? That’s the strange sensation I feel every time I go to the Adega. The Adega remains a place where time moves slowly. It lingers at one table over a drink, at another over the news, further along delaying itself in a game of cards, postponing departure for yet another glass and another story. The walls stand guard over photographic memories –customers from other eras lined up in toasting poses, the neighbourhood in festive processions during the Santos Populares festivities, a few pennants and their respective amateur football teams. At the counter, Manel dos Frades was serving drinks and food with a skill honed by habit, the same easy...

Prologue 4. Return from the past

Sorry for the interruption. I have more news, but I’ll tell it later. Let me finish this while it’s still clear in my head, before the details start slipping away. You’ve probably realised it already. It was a night that did not belong to this world. And the worst of it had yet to come. I was trying to understand how I had ended up in the middle of Rua dos Mareantes, some distance from the entrance to “La Bohème”, when I heard a voice behind me. It was familiar, but warped, as if it were playing back from an old tape left too long in the sun. “Look who’s here. You alright?” I turned. They were all there. My old crowd. My childhood friends. I had not seen them together in years. Not since we were teenagers. Manel dos Frades, with those dark hollows under his eyes carved deep into his face by too many hours of work. Mac, soaked in perfume, the smell clinging to him like a shield against something he could not wash away. Barão, pale and thin, carrying himself like a fallen aristocrat...

Prologue 3. Submerged Mariners

Sorry for the interruption again, it was the building manager. He came to deliver the building regulations, a dense document filled with minor precepts. Only the typical fondness for formalities, so often displayed by those in minor positions of authority, can explain his insistence on handing me a printed copy in person, accompanied by long-winded platitudes. I am considering leaving the city and will need a responsible tenant to look after the flat for an extended period. All of this seems rather sudden, perhaps even a little manic, but the reasons for my unease are tied to the story I am trying to tell you faithfully. As you might suspect, I ended up going with the French couple to “La Bohème”. I cannot quite explain why. On the one hand, I wanted to get away before Ms Lortz or someone from the library spotted me. On the other, I felt that peculiar fascination that free spirits exert over souls weary of routine. Or perhaps it was simply the hope of hearing live jazz. As my...

Prologue 2. Contingencies on the Terrace

Sorry for the interruption, it was a call from my boss. She says she wants to speak to me in person, probably to fire me. The thing is, yesterday, after she sent me that message, I really did end up not sending her the work. I’ll explain, let me try to pick up the thread again. After giving getting fine, I stayed there, rooted in front of the library, the ticket in my hand, thinking about what had just happened. That whole business with the apologies kept nagging at me, like an itch at the back of my mind. What kind of theatrical trio were they, to take offence so readily, as though I had stumbled into some old tale where only a duel could settle matters? And who exactly was Ms Lortz, the new librarian? “Is it possible for a character to step off the page and be turned into flesh and blood… and who knows what else?”, I wondered. That was when I realised, in sheer horror, that I had slung over my shoulder, in my linen tote, the books I had taken from the shelves to borrow. If those...

Prologue 1. Halfway Through the Beginning

Have you ever tried to tell someone about something that happened to you, only to realise you have to go much further back just to make sense of it? That’s why I’m asking for your patience as you read this email, this long account. The past 24 hours have been so surreal that I still wonder whether it was all just a dream. Do you remember Professor Ribeiro’s classes? The ones where he served us mythology at eight in the morning as if it were hot toast? The story of Theseus, the Minotaur, and the ball of thread that saved the hero’s life? We laughed when Calhotas said it was rather naïve that no one had brought a GPS, just another of his anachronistic remarks that would derail the lesson. Then Professor Ribeiro explained that following the thread meant retracing the path, but also following the narrative that gives meaning to the hero’s journey. I don’t know why, but that stayed with me. Perhaps because it explained something too simple to be obvious: we tell stories so we don’t get...

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